Let It Go

“Let it go, let it go, can’t hold it back anymore.”  Funny how a simple kids cartoon lyric can resonate such truth in this world we call real life.  As a master planner, I have lists, agendas, and goals.  I have timelines and set expectations.  I have dreams that have been pending since childhood and hopes that feel like they are never going to follow through.  I have plans that were suppose to happen “like this” and “by now.”  Where did they go?  Why didn’t it turn out just like I thought?  Sometimes we don’t just need to let it go, we need to let it go and grab God!  “A man plans his ways but the Lord determines his steps.”  (Proverbs 16:9)

See, more often than not our type A, master plan, and somewhat prideful selves feel like we have the “perfect” plan.  We didn’t seem to acknowledge God in our equation and set our minds and hearts on something specific.  If you’re anything like me, you too have set those plans and sometimes watched them crash and burn or feel like you’re lost in the dessert waiting.  However, when we grab hold of God and let him make our plans, cultivate our desires, and create our to do lists, we don’t just watch something magical happen, we see miracles happen.

It’s not that God wants to withhold your dreams from you or make you wait in anguish.  It’s that God has this master blueprint so perfectly laid out, so timely oriented, and so precisely perfect that our plans couldn’t even compare in the least bit.  After a rough few days of misaligned plans, I find myself fixated on the “misses” with emotional frustration and at times resentful.  However, when I look back at my life story and I revisit the big bullet points of God’s movement, I see he never missed a beat.  He never let a prayer or desire be empty.  He changed my heart from the inside out, he reshaped my desires, and he reminded me of my purpose.

So today if you are having one of those broken hearted days over the failed hope of what the future had, I want you to let it go and grab onto God!

Dear Lord,

My plans seemed so perfect, my agenda was full, and today somehow I feel empty handed.  I feel like I’ve been wanting and waiting for <insert item here> and that hasn’t happened.  My heart is saddened, my spirit rejected, but in the midst of my sorrow, I’m reminded “do not be sad and dejected for the joy of the Lord is my strength.” (Nehemiah 8:10)  I hear your spirit telling me, “The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.”  (Isaiah 58:11)  I know your plans are for me and with me, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11)  So dear Lord. I lay my heart open to you.  I ask for this desire within me to be changed or met.  I pray that this need I have will be used to bring you honor and glory and that it will be a testimony to your name and power.  “So that people may see and know, may consider and understand, that the hand of the LORD has done this, that the Holy One of Israel has created it.  (Isaiah 41:20)  Lord you are the almighty and King of this world and my heart.  Use me to do your will, “for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose”.  (Phillipians 2:13)

Thank you for your great power and for in my moments of weakness, giving me strength.  “For when I am weak, I am also strong.” (2 Corinthians 2:10)  “I will praise you, Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify your name forever.”  (Psalm 86:12)  Lord, thank you for your surpassing strength and power.  May it resonate in me and through me today.  Amen.